It's Where My Demons Hide.

All this self-doubt creeping in and over-thinking windmilling around makes for a sleepless couple of nights and tormented days.

Fuck right off.

Merry fucking Christmas.

Mugshots and Wedding Shenanigans.

From this ...

To this ...

What a difference a year makes!

(Wow, I dropped the ball on actually posting this entry ... whoops! Two months later.)

I Believe in Something Again.

My whole heart

Will be yours forever

This is a beautiful start

To a lifelong love letter

Tell the world that we finally got it all right

I choose you

I will become yours and you will become mine

I choose you

I choose you

We are not perfect

We'll learn from our mistakes

And as long as it takes

I will prove my love to you

I am not scared of the elements

I am under-prepared, but I am willing

And even better

I get to be the other half of you

New entry coming soon, I promise!

Somewhere Over the Rainbow, That's Where You'll Find Me.

Today was a sad day as I had to begin saying goodbye to someone who was like a big sister to me growing up.  She and her sisters are part of some of my fondest memories from childhood.  Today was harder to handle than I had anticipated. Thursday is when we have to officially lay her to rest and if tonight is anything to go by, it'll be pretty similar with regards to coping.

But, in trying to find the silver lining of my day I thought I would share this story from my afternoon. I was getting ready to leave the day home I was visiting and one of the little girls asked me, completely out of nowhere: "Why don't you have a baby?" To which I responded: "I don't have any babies of my own just yet." The day home provider tried to help me out and told the girl, "Miss Adrienne is still young to have babies." But another one piped up: "But maybe your baby is still in your tummy! I was in my mommy's tummy until she was ready for me."

Oh out of the mouths of babes. Figured I'd share that cute little story. It was the first time I'd been to this day home so it's not like the topic of my having children or not has come up before. Kids. Drive me crazy, but I love them.

Down With The Sickness.

Anemia.

How you torture me. I haven't had it this bad for a long time. Not really enjoying being so exhausted and sluggish; definitely letting my kiddos down.

Looking forward to feeling like myself again in a couple of days.

(Can't come soon enough.)

Ugh.

Got My Dreams, Got My Life, Got My Love.

Got my dreams, got my life, got my love,

Got my friends, got the sunshine above,

Why am I making this hard on myself 

When there's so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy?

Happy New Year from Me and My Other Half!

So Many Beautiful Reasons to Be Happy.

Aside from feeling like I've been hit by a freight train (took a nasty spill on some black ice yesterday which uncluded cracking my head on concrete, and now my entire body is in ridiculous amounts of pain like I've never experienced before), 2014 is off to a wonderful start.

First off, I'm buying my first house with my beau which I am absolutely ecstatic about. We're customizing it to fit us and to be everything we want in a starter home. It's a huge step for any relationship, but it truly is what feels right. And in being realistic and knowing that anything can happen and that relationships can end, we are preparing for the worst while hoping for the best. (Just in case anyone was questioning how quickly things are moving and how smart the two of us are being.) In any case, this is a very exciting time in my life and I really could not be happier.

Secondly, I've had the chance to see and catch up with many friends whom I haven't seen in a long time ... a year and a half to be exact. Had lunch with my friends from University and it was great to spend time with them and all the Linguistic-nerd glory. Seeing more friends tomorrow which makes me more happy.

Overall, I find that I am quite fortunate and blessed to have this life of mine. For all the hardships and adversity I've faced in past years, I find I'm on the upswing for a change and hopefully staying on this trajectory. Everything good that is happening makes me feel like the struggles were worth it.

Here's hoping 2014 continues to be a great year. I hope everyone's year is going well thus far and will also be prosperous and full of joy.

Much love,
Adrienne