Oh Zachary Levi ...

Who knew you could sing so well?!

And the fact that you're singing one of my favourite songs makes me adore you even more! (Singing my favourite verse from the song too! I'm a very happy girl right now =D)

The video is absolutely gorgeous and captures the meaning behind the lyrics so well. The truth is, I've never known and I still don't know what it's really like to be "in love" but I figure it's something slightly terrifying if you've never experienced it. You have to put all your trust into another person, wholly and unconditionally - believing and trusting them not to hurt you or break you. Love seems like such a frightening thing. I've always believed that it takes time to love someone, in other words: I don't believe in love at first sight. Though, who am I to put a time stamp on something so beautiful and intangible. I do not doubt that it'll be entirely worth it when it happens or when I realize what being in love truly means.

Seeing the romances of my friends Sarah and Tammi flourish gives me so much hope in eventually finding a love of my own. I must admit that "Terrified" is a bit of a contradiction of my "Fearless" entry a few days ago: I want a fearless love and yet I'm apparently afraid of what being in love is really about. I guess I'm just a walking contradiction.

(Third time I'm posting this song on this blog ... I'll admit, I'm obsessed. At least this time, it's not Kara DioGuardi and Jason Reeves ;) However, can you blame me? It's a beautiful song!)

Fearless.

Right now I am at a place in my life where I am comfortable. Everything feels natural. Everything is just falling into place. I have so much control yet I have none at the same time. I don't mind. I am perfectly content to just let everything happen the way it's meant to happen.

This is something entirely different.

I feel entirely natural with my emotions, which rarely happens. I completely understand how I feel and why I feel. I am happy in my own skin. I am happy with the way life is going at the moment. I am pursuing my happiness.

I am not alone.

It's about trust, openness, acceptance, a bit of mystery, parts of the past, and the ability to move forward. It's about taking chances, asking questions, and understanding. It's about the jokes, the laughter, the knowing stares ... a routine. It's about growth.

I am in a good place. Of course, it didn't come without certain obstacles. I had to deal with my tumultuous and over-analytical thoughts. I had to learn to face my fears: fears of ruining a good thing, fears of truly letting myself live, fears of success. I still have some fears but they're only minor. For this moment, I feel fearless.



But I am what I am, and I am what I am afraid of. Oh what am I afraid of? I need a fearless love, don't need to fear the end. If you can't hold me now, you will never hold me again. I want to life my life pursuing my happiness. I want a fearless love, I won't settle for anything less.

<3