Fortune Teller Said I'd Be Free.

I caught you burnin' photographs
Like that could save you from your past
History is like gravity
It holds you down away from me
You and me, we've both got sins
I don't care about where you've been
Don't be sad and don't explain
This is where we start again
Start again

I Don't Want Easy, I Want Crazy.

Been on a total Hunter Hayes binge for the past few days ... so much so that I couldn't actually decide which song I wanted to post, so I'm posting two! :) I hadn't heard "Wanted" for a long time and it had been playing at this diner in Beiseker last weekend and just this past weekend I simply had this urge to listen to it again ... about a hundred times in a row.  Eventually I figured I should branch out a bit and check out some more of his music and found "I Want Crazy" and listened to that about 100 times too, so I figured I'd share in the ear worms!

You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you

Like everything that's green, girl, I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too

I don't want just another hug and a kiss goodnight
Catchin' up calls and a date sometimes
I love that we're rebels, and we still believe
We're the kind of crazy people wish that they could be, yeah

This is the Last.

I kept waiting on a reason
And a call that never came
No, I never saw it coming
Something in you must have changed

All the words unspoken, promises broken
I cried for so long
Wasted too much time, should've seen the signs
Now I know just what went wrong

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now, I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

All the nights we spent just talking
Of the things we wanted out of life
Making plans and dreams together
Wish I'd seen, I was just too blind

My heart was open, exposed and hoping
For you to lay it on the line
In the end it seemed
There was no room for me
Still, I tried to change your mind

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now, I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

Oh, I don't need you
I don't need you anymore

I guess I wanted you more
And looking back now, I'm sure
I wanted you more
I guess I wanted you more

I don't need you
I don't need you anymore

It's Just Over.

The sky is not fallin'
The sun is still shinin'
And all of the fishes are still in the sea
My mama's still callin'
The bills are still piling
My heart may be broken but I hold the pieces, pieces...

Had a mate to my soul, but I haven't lost all hope
It's not the end of the world...
It's just over.

Through tears I'm still smiling
My life's not decided
I can go anywhere I want to go
Your ghost is still creeping
There's more room for sleeping
I may be over you, you'll never know, know

Had a mate to my soul, but I haven't lost all hope
It's not the end of the world...
It's just over... over, over, over

Had a mate to my soul, but I haven't lost all hope
It's not the end of the world,
It's just over, over, over

It Might Be a Second Too Late.

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
Because someday I might call you from my heart

But it might be a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Are gonna come out anyway.

You give me something
That makes me scared alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something.
 
Please give me something,

Because someday I might know my heart ...

You Look so Different, But You Feel the Same.

If any of you hadn't noticed, the majority of my blog titles come from song lyrics; usually the ones I have playing in the background while writing.  Maroon 5, Bruno Mars, Grace Potter and the Nocturnals, and Esthero have been on heavy rotation for me these past few weeks during my commutes.  This song in particular has been on repeat probably 100 times at least just in the last week.

What am I supposed to do to get by?

Did I lose everything I need to survive?

'Cause at 4am, when the sweat sets in

Did you get my message? Did it send?

Or did you just get on with your life?

Oh, I'm taking time to think and

I don't think it's fair for us to

Turn around and say goodbye

I have this feeling when I

Finally find the words to say

But I can't tell you if you turn around

And run away, run away

Just Come and Dance with Me Tonight.

I was just listening to my ipod on shuffle in my car today and this song came on ... I suppose it's a bit at odds with how I've been feeling lately and what's been going on in my life, but it makes me happy.  It's one of those feel-good songs and even if you can't necessarily relate to the lyrics, it will certainly make you want to dance - well, it makes me want to dance at least.

I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do.  And hopefully, I'll have an actual blog entry up in the next few days (work has been keeping me especially busy this week, so I apologize!)

So much learning to lose,
but you're not a day too soon.
So say you feel the same and
we'll never be lonely anymore
 

I'll wear that dress if you wear the tie
and baby we'll dance through the night
'cause no one's got what we've got going.
Happiness never held on to me
until you had me see
that together we're just better off.

Better off When I Hit the Bottom.

Hold Your Breath and Fall Apart.

I've been in strange moods for the past few days.  As usual, I've got a song that matches the mood.  This song has been on repeat in my car during my commutes quite often (I'll let the album play, but once I get to this song I hit the repeat mode).  Anyway, I've mentioned in previous posts that Esthero is my favourite female artist, and her first album in seven years was released just a few months ago.  I received my signed copy of it in the mail just last week.

This is hands down my favourite song on the album, unfortunately, the video below was the only one I was able to find of it.  The album features Jonah Johnson, but this version has the talented Ron Sexsmith.  The audience makes it a little tricky to hear the actual song though.  I recommend taking a listen to the studio version here. (You do have to create an account, which is kind of a pain, but totally worth it.)

I think I've rambled enough ... so without further ado, Crash - Esthero ft. Ron Sexsmith.

Crashed down on the floor,

Hold your breath and fall apart.

You made a simple mistake,

And now you're paying for it with your heart.

Some of us make our own beds,

But we can't afford to lay in them.

Remember I always have said you should leave me alone ...

'Cause I don't wanna crash now,

I'm afraid that I'm going nowhere way too fast.

And I can't hear what you say,

I'm in a conversation with my past.

Well maybe, I wasn't that brave,

So much as brazen, but it got me through.

And somehow the path that I paved

Just keeps leading me to you.

But I don't wanna crash now.

I don't wanna crash now.

I shoulda never been afraid to lay you down,

I just wanna hold you in my arms again,

If only for a moment I could have you here,

Lady, I would never let you go,

But I don't wanna crash now.

I don't wanna crash now.

Come on in the sun,

When you're scared, then face it down,

'Cause here I am in your love ...

Keep facing the sun, you'll reach it one day.

Baby don't look back til you get what you need,

And you need to be free.

And when the sun goes down,

There's still tomorrow,

Don't be afraid to let your sorrow breathe.

Your strength is all you need.

Did you ever know you were the one?

'Cause I could hardly even tell ...

Hoping One Day You'll Make a Dream Last.

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go ...

I'm a Black Mermaid.

I should be studying, but I figured I deserved a break after 45 minutes of straight work.

Random tidbit about me: My favourite female artist is Esthero.  It's been 7 years (count them, SEVEN - I was in my first year of high school back then) since her last album was released.  After that long wait, Everything is Expensive was finally released last week and I definitely recommend taking a listen to it.  This song isn't my favourite off the album ("Over" takes that position), but it's pretty damn close.

The quality on this youtube vid isn't that great, but it gets the point across.

And I've spent most of my life deep down inside myself

I've dreamt about the possibility of someone else

who could see the things I've seen

and steal away with me.

Let Me Make Believe.

I know you tried but your heart ain't gonna fake it
If it ain't love, there's no way I can take it
So exposed, I might as well be naked
And I've been praying but I just can't make you love me
And it burns my heart that you don't feel the flame

I can't make you love me
so hold me like you mean it
and I'll pretend you feel it one last time.

- Elise Estrada "One Last Time"

I Tried to Forget.

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here I rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night ...

- Death Cab for Cutie

If there's one spark of hope left in my grasp ...

is it worth the risk of burning to have a second chance?