I'm going in to get my wisdom teeth taken out in a few hours. I'm pretty nervous and keep psyching myself out by thinking of all the complications that could happen. I also just want to get this over with, however I don't want to go through the pain that's inevitably going to come later on!
Aside from that - I am absolutely starving! I haven't eaten since 8 pm last night and I'm not allowed to eat or drink anything anymore because of the stupid anesthesia. THEN I won't be able to eat anyway because of the 4 gaping holes that will be in my mouth (and inevitable pain). It's a sad, sad day when I cannot eat. Although, I did do the 30 Hour Famine two years in a row so maybe I'll be okay? In any case, I'm hungry and because of that, I'm cranky. It's also depressing to think about all the weight that I will probably lose in the next few days because of this inability to eat. Not cool.
Ughhh ... why can't these teeth just magically disappear? That would make everything so much easier and I wouldn't have to starve.
(The fact that I'm not allowed to wear make-up today also kills me a bit ... here's hoping I don't run into anyone I know this morning, I look absolutely terrible!)
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Gotten.
"You just get me like I've never been gotten before."
Slash (Guns 'n Roses) recently came out with a CD featuring a bunch of really amazing artists. I am absolutely in love with a bunch of the songs but this one is definitely my favourite. I've always adored Adam Levine's distinct tone so this was a real treat - the lyrics, Slash's guitar skills, and Adam's voice = brilliance.
The lyrics, in my opinion, tell the story of two former lovers meeting again, by chance, after a long separation. It's clear that the object of the song (the woman) has been in a relationship which was, quite possibly, toxic and she may have been abused or, at least, mistreated. He wants to save her from either herself or the other man - I think it's more that she's become her own worst enemy and because of her toxic relationship, her self-esteem and sense of self-worth have lowered considerably: "I can't save you if you don't let me." He also wants to fight for her, to get her back, to get her to find her fighting spirit again: "So nice to see your face again but tell me will this ever end; don't disappear." It's as if this situation has happened before and so he's asking her to end the vicious cycle between them.
I feel that this song is actually quite simple to understand and fairly easy to relate to: everyone has had someone in their life that they've wanted to save in some way.
I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do!
Slash (Guns 'n Roses) recently came out with a CD featuring a bunch of really amazing artists. I am absolutely in love with a bunch of the songs but this one is definitely my favourite. I've always adored Adam Levine's distinct tone so this was a real treat - the lyrics, Slash's guitar skills, and Adam's voice = brilliance.
The lyrics, in my opinion, tell the story of two former lovers meeting again, by chance, after a long separation. It's clear that the object of the song (the woman) has been in a relationship which was, quite possibly, toxic and she may have been abused or, at least, mistreated. He wants to save her from either herself or the other man - I think it's more that she's become her own worst enemy and because of her toxic relationship, her self-esteem and sense of self-worth have lowered considerably: "I can't save you if you don't let me." He also wants to fight for her, to get her back, to get her to find her fighting spirit again: "So nice to see your face again but tell me will this ever end; don't disappear." It's as if this situation has happened before and so he's asking her to end the vicious cycle between them.
I feel that this song is actually quite simple to understand and fairly easy to relate to: everyone has had someone in their life that they've wanted to save in some way.
I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Tongue Tied.
"Nothing's worse than knowing you're holding back."
I have never been particularly good at expressing myself verbally. It's part of the reason it's so hard for me to open up to people: I'm the type to be more confident behind written words rather than spoken. I once took a course on rhetorical communication and while my written essays and assignments were strong, my oral presentations were considerably weaker. My mind simply functions better when I have a pen in my hand or a keyboard at my fingertips.
I guess it's just a matter of processing everything and finding the right words to say. I stumble over my words, mix up word orders, use the wrong words, lose my train of thought easily. It's frustrating that I can respond quickly, clearly, effectively when I'm reading and writing and yet get me talking in person or on the phone and I seem lose all ability to respond at all.
Or perhaps I'm afraid: afraid of speaking my true mind, afraid of offending someone, afraid of over-stepping a certain boundary, afraid of making a fool of myself, afraid of what the other person will say in response. It's easy to hit backspace or cross out what you've written before you make it final but in verbal communication, it's difficult, impossible really, to take anything back.
As I said, it's a hindrance.
A lot of the time I know I'm holding back and it's because of this silly characteristic of mine that I just can't verbalize my thoughts orally. I have so many things to say and yet I can never find the right words to say them. Writing letters can only go so far and I can't rely on written communication every time I have something important to say. I have had so many opportunities to say what I really want/need to say and yet I haven't as I never know how to phrase my ideas. It's not as if I can write down everything I want to say and practice in the mirror - I think that's silly: what I need to say requires a bit of spontaneity ... I just need to find the words and stop holding back.
I have never been particularly good at expressing myself verbally. It's part of the reason it's so hard for me to open up to people: I'm the type to be more confident behind written words rather than spoken. I once took a course on rhetorical communication and while my written essays and assignments were strong, my oral presentations were considerably weaker. My mind simply functions better when I have a pen in my hand or a keyboard at my fingertips.
I guess it's just a matter of processing everything and finding the right words to say. I stumble over my words, mix up word orders, use the wrong words, lose my train of thought easily. It's frustrating that I can respond quickly, clearly, effectively when I'm reading and writing and yet get me talking in person or on the phone and I seem lose all ability to respond at all.
Or perhaps I'm afraid: afraid of speaking my true mind, afraid of offending someone, afraid of over-stepping a certain boundary, afraid of making a fool of myself, afraid of what the other person will say in response. It's easy to hit backspace or cross out what you've written before you make it final but in verbal communication, it's difficult, impossible really, to take anything back.
As I said, it's a hindrance.
A lot of the time I know I'm holding back and it's because of this silly characteristic of mine that I just can't verbalize my thoughts orally. I have so many things to say and yet I can never find the right words to say them. Writing letters can only go so far and I can't rely on written communication every time I have something important to say. I have had so many opportunities to say what I really want/need to say and yet I haven't as I never know how to phrase my ideas. It's not as if I can write down everything I want to say and practice in the mirror - I think that's silly: what I need to say requires a bit of spontaneity ... I just need to find the words and stop holding back.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Quotable III.
No explanations, just listen:
Don't go changing to try and please me, you never let me down before. Don't imagine you're too familiar and I don't see you anymore; I would not leave you in times of trouble, we never could have come this far. I took the good times, I'll take the bad times, I'll take you just the way you are.
Don't go trying some new fashion. Don't change the color of your hair. You always have my unspoken passion, although I might not seem to care.
I don't want clever conversation, I never want to work that hard; I just want someone that I can talk to. I want you just the way you are.
I need to know that you will always be the same old someone that I knew. What will it take till you believe in me the way that I believe in you?
Don't go changing to try and please me, you never let me down before. Don't imagine you're too familiar and I don't see you anymore; I would not leave you in times of trouble, we never could have come this far. I took the good times, I'll take the bad times, I'll take you just the way you are.
Don't go trying some new fashion. Don't change the color of your hair. You always have my unspoken passion, although I might not seem to care.
I don't want clever conversation, I never want to work that hard; I just want someone that I can talk to. I want you just the way you are.
I need to know that you will always be the same old someone that I knew. What will it take till you believe in me the way that I believe in you?
Friday, May 7, 2010
Oh Zachary Levi ...
Who knew you could sing so well?!
And the fact that you're singing one of my favourite songs makes me adore you even more! (Singing my favourite verse from the song too! I'm a very happy girl right now =D)
The video is absolutely gorgeous and captures the meaning behind the lyrics so well. The truth is, I've never known and I still don't know what it's really like to be "in love" but I figure it's something slightly terrifying if you've never experienced it. You have to put all your trust into another person, wholly and unconditionally - believing and trusting them not to hurt you or break you. Love seems like such a frightening thing. I've always believed that it takes time to love someone, in other words: I don't believe in love at first sight. Though, who am I to put a time stamp on something so beautiful and intangible. I do not doubt that it'll be entirely worth it when it happens or when I realize what being in love truly means.
Seeing the romances of my friends Sarah and Tammi flourish gives me so much hope in eventually finding a love of my own. I must admit that "Terrified" is a bit of a contradiction of my "Fearless" entry a few days ago: I want a fearless love and yet I'm apparently afraid of what being in love is really about. I guess I'm just a walking contradiction.
(Third time I'm posting this song on this blog ... I'll admit, I'm obsessed. At least this time, it's not Kara DioGuardi and Jason Reeves ;) However, can you blame me? It's a beautiful song!)
And the fact that you're singing one of my favourite songs makes me adore you even more! (Singing my favourite verse from the song too! I'm a very happy girl right now =D)
The video is absolutely gorgeous and captures the meaning behind the lyrics so well. The truth is, I've never known and I still don't know what it's really like to be "in love" but I figure it's something slightly terrifying if you've never experienced it. You have to put all your trust into another person, wholly and unconditionally - believing and trusting them not to hurt you or break you. Love seems like such a frightening thing. I've always believed that it takes time to love someone, in other words: I don't believe in love at first sight. Though, who am I to put a time stamp on something so beautiful and intangible. I do not doubt that it'll be entirely worth it when it happens or when I realize what being in love truly means.
Seeing the romances of my friends Sarah and Tammi flourish gives me so much hope in eventually finding a love of my own. I must admit that "Terrified" is a bit of a contradiction of my "Fearless" entry a few days ago: I want a fearless love and yet I'm apparently afraid of what being in love is really about. I guess I'm just a walking contradiction.
(Third time I'm posting this song on this blog ... I'll admit, I'm obsessed. At least this time, it's not Kara DioGuardi and Jason Reeves ;) However, can you blame me? It's a beautiful song!)
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