Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Just Come and Dance with Me Tonight.

I was just listening to my ipod on shuffle in my car today and this song came on ... I suppose it's a bit at odds with how I've been feeling lately and what's been going on in my life, but it makes me happy.  It's one of those feel-good songs and even if you can't necessarily relate to the lyrics, it will certainly make you want to dance - well, it makes me want to dance at least.

I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do.  And hopefully, I'll have an actual blog entry up in the next few days (work has been keeping me especially busy this week, so I apologize!)


So much learning to lose,
but you're not a day too soon.
So say you feel the same and
we'll never be lonely anymore
 
I'll wear that dress if you wear the tie
and baby we'll dance through the night
'cause no one's got what we've got going.
Happiness never held on to me
until you had me see
that together we're just better off.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

I Wrote 200 Letters I Will Never Send.

Monday had me hearing things like "I'm just gonna quickly nip to the loo." (I LOVE having a British co-worker), "You call EVERYBODY sweetpea!" (and yet you still smile when I do, little girl!),and "My dad is gonna trade in his Rolls Royce for an Alfa Romeo." (I wanted to kick this guy in the face ... he was up on the training level of the YMCA, running on an elliptical along the balcony, and having a shouted conversation with a lady down on the main floor.  Pretentious ass face.)

Tuesday was paper work, paper work, paper work(!!!!) in the morning, oh and organizing toys I suppose.  Buying a Happy Meal at McDonalds for lunch just so I could get a Hello Kitty toy. Almost getting lost, but managing to figure out which direction to go in the fork in the road at the very last - and I do mean last - second while driving through downtown to get to my afternoon shift (luckily, there was no traffic behind me ... I admittedly had to do some fancy maneuvering in reverse.  Oops.).

Wednesday was full of nerves, slight breakthroughs, and awkward moments. I really would rather not elaborate too much on this.  Just know that awkward day is awkward.

Thursday saw me with a split lip, bruised thigh, bruised shins, and a bruised pelvic bone.  Sounds like I was assaulted, but nope, just a child going through an aggressive phase and using his head when I told him to not hit with his hands or feet.  Creative, I suppose, but left me in a world of pain.  Pretty sure if I had been a man, the hit to the groin would have been worse, but still ridiculously painful.  Still managed to power through some errands after work, and go to dance class which effectively made my old knee injury flare up again and make my thighs burn the only way a Highland Fling can.

Friday was exhaustion ... and painful in a crampy, midsection-on-fire kind of way.  Really didn't get very much done, but indulge in a 3 hour nap after lunch. :3

Today was another fairly lazy day simply explicable by a lack of motivation to do anything.  However, I must allow myself this moment in vanity and say that I looked really pretty today. :) Why can't I look this good when I actually see people I'm going to be spending time with for more than an hour!?

Tomorrow I ship my Dad and Auntie back to the motherland.  Yes, putting them in their own boxes and taking them to the FedEx loading docks at the airport.  Just kidding, they get their own seats; albeit they have to sit with strangers and about 60 rows apart on the plane to Taipei and another couple dozen rows apart from Taipei to Manila.  Oh well, I suppose.  Knowing my dad he probably prefers sitting apart from his sister ... I think he wishes they were sitting closer than 60 rows apart, but definitely doesn't mind not sitting side-by-side.  (And now you all know where I get my loner-ish tendencies from!)

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Turn Around and Run Away.

Anxiety creeping in at exponential levels tonight.

Trying to find someone to spend the hour prior to my appointment tomorrow to distract me from the nervousness and ensure I actually go. Unfortunately my search has been fruitless.

I could go work out, but I feel like I may accidentally-on-purpose work out too long. I mean, the deposit I paid to book that appointment would be forfeit, but it wasn't that expensive...

Ugh.

Monday, February 4, 2013

I Got Nothing Left to Show You.

"Why are you sad?"

"I'm not sad, sweetie."

"Oh, but you have a sad face on!"

"Do I have a sad looking mouth?"

"No ... but your eyes look sad!"

"I'm just tired ... that's all."

"Oh ... that's okay then.  I thought you were sad. You should get more sleep!"

[Sigh] ... the perception and lack of filter in 4-and 5-year-olds never ceases to amaze me.  Of course, it's also nice that they can be so easily swayed to believe untruths.

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Never Gonna Leave This Bed.

Feeling a little shitty tonight. Not as bad as last night though which is a huge plus.

Triggers are in a huge abundance tonight. I've been reminded of a certain former friend's huge lack of consideration, not to mention constant need for attention.  Anyway, triggers are triggers and I really don't need them right now. 

I guess I can say that I do feel accomplished in having submitted a few more grad school applications today. Silver linings and all that.

Sorry, short post is short.